13.5x20.5 inches; Pen drawing on handmade paper with watercolour wash (Click on image to enlarge)
You look at me like I exist; because my body displaces
the air of your quick appraisal around it and occupies the space of your slow
verdict, of whether it is worth your while to humour this piece of meat enough,
for a feather-in-the-cap fuck, in time. My chest, my hips, my ass, my legs and
everything else in between, except my head (I don’t mean ‘giving head’,
silly!), heart and soul, ignites your uncontrollable passion. Men will be men,
won’t they? And they will be forever spiralling out of control, won’t they? Decision
made, my body either scores high on your lust scale or falls short of it, and
accordingly, so does my existence in your attention span. Should I call myself
lucky if my body fails to excite you enough? But then, does it really matter?
I, my body, may excite some other stranger and it will be the same routine. And
then slowly you start your tiresome mating call. Do I appear excited too? Ah,
pardon me! You were not instructed to pay attention to such things. Who cares
if a piece of meat is interested to fill your appetite, you just grab it and
consume it. Who dares deny you? And just because you find me fuck worthy, an
automatic neon sign saying ‘Come On’ appears to be glowing all over me! That’s exactly what happens; I get consumed
even if I say, “NO!” You say, “Bitch! You led me on! Don’t play hard-to-get
now. You want this badly and I am going to give it to you anyway!” and my
aversion fuels your determination. Should I feel thankful, later, if my body does
not end up in the morgue? Your crime may get buried under complicit cultural
validations, but my scars will run deeper and cut through that safety net, in
time.
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Bitch – meaning in
slang
§ A
woman (noun)
§ A
despicable woman (noun)
§ A
feminine or weak man (noun)
§ A
sexually submissive person (noun)
e.g. "someone's bitch"
§ something
that is difficult or unpleasant (noun)
§ to
complain (verb)
§ to
inform (verb)
Source: The
Concise New Partridge Dictionary of Slang and Unconventional English
Bitch is a
sexist/misogynist slur/insult used for
1. A woman
who is mean/malicious/strongly opinionated/aggressive
2. A woman with a high sex drive, promiscuous
woman e.g. ‘Bitch in heat’
3. A woman not conforming to societal propriety
or expectations
4. A man who is considered weak and complaining
5. An androgynous man who is all or any of the
above
6. A Transgender person who is all or any of
the above
‘Bitch’ didn't
really become popular as a universal female insult until the 1920s. Between
1915 and 1930, the use of "bitch" in newspapers and literature more
than doubled. That is when women's suffrage happened and they got the right to
vote, and men were not happy about it. The feminists have reclaimed and used
the word bitch since then to denote strength, ferocity, edginess, authority,
determination, willingness to fight it out and establishing sexual agency.
Popular misconception
which is propagated in our society – A ‘bitch’ needs to be controlled, tamed
and kept on the leash and taught a good lesson/severely punished if needed. The
punishment is often meted out in the form of physical, verbal and psychological
abuse - Domestic violence, torture, rape, public shaming, curtailing support
system and taking life - each one a criminal act against humanity.
For further
reading:
Links:
1. https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/ppmx3m/the-evolution-of-the-bitch-905
2. https://link.springer.com/article/10.1007/s11199-019-01095-z
3. https://www.bbc.com/news/magazine-36627061
4. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bitch_(slang)
5.https://www.huffpost.com/entry/post_4332_b_2526243?guccounter=1&guce_referrer=aHR0cHM6Ly9lbi53aWtpcGVkaWEub3JnLw&guce_referrer_sig=AQAAAAWtTGpvwY2Hc7SRarypa3S5B7Sb5PGqvlDcwOg6jjIsefvCYKOtkfakEQU4ZrcECcfRgBqZjZi7gQ_8nLUtvkbLqsZ1vjlT8rQD_BO5u6IM1RGCNjrnbCMOS49LeC3-RSNugQc0CwiK-FFvy0GSmvzGpfVWwmAjjf3gU3sDMFp_
